"People say that you never know what you have until it's gone. If that's true, then we don't know what we are really missing out on until it arrives." This quote can be applied to many different situations, but the first one that comes to my mind is..another person. A crush. Everyone has crushes, some last a minute and others last much longer. I never thought I would get over my first crush..I was 9 years old. Of course, I told my mom that I hated boys and they had cooties..but I will never forget AJ, and the innocent, carefree feelings I had towards him. Time goes on, and eventually those feelings dissolved. It's funny..when you think about crushes. You think there will never be a time when they aren't the only thing on your mind, that you won't spend time wondering what they are doing, what they are thinking of..and who they are spending their time thinking about. You overanalyze every interaction, spend time worrying over nonsense, all the while secretly trying to convince yourself that this person is the one for you. You let your emotions take control..you wish upon a star, hoping that one day things will work in your favor. Sometimes they do. And sometimes they don't. When it does, it's the most amazing feeling in the world. You feel complete..life suddenly makes sense. The butterflies in your stomach cannot be described. Kisses..that make you forget everything you had ever worried about, that make you wish the world would stand still and that moment would go on forever. Learning about someone else's life, their thoughts, goals, dreams..it's such a beautiful thing. When it doesn't work out, you feel destroyed. You feel it didn't work out because of something you did or did not do. Or that your hair wasn't the right color, that your clothes weren't cute enough..or that you just weren't good enough for that person. It's a lot to swallow. I once heard a quote.."I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all." I've had heartbreak from a crush, and I would have rather felt nothing during the hard times, than what I did. But I realized that there is a reason you feel pain. You learn from it. You think you will never get over it..but you do. It might take a day, or a week or a year...but you do. Then you look back and realize everything that happened during that time..how many doors you let close, how many opportunities you missed out on..trying to make something that wasn't meant to be work. You start to look back on it all..and you laugh. You laugh at how you acted, the way you felt, the things you did..it makes you realize that if you wanted so much to be with the wrong person, how perfect it will be when the right one comes along. I've had these feelings, the good ones that bring back smiles and the ones that made me cry. But i've learned from each and every crush and relationship i've ever had. It makes me giggle..thinking ahead to the future. I wonder what I will be giggling about..when I look back on right now, when it's the past..
